Monday, August 31, 2009

sigh

feeling mopey, and feeling like im spending too much time feeling mopey. I feel like people are gonna get sick of mopey kelly real quick. Im not looking for sympathy/attention (i dont think), just not thrilled with various aspects of the world and for some reason its been bugging me more lately. I just cant seem to let shit slide lately.. i carry the worlds problems around in my head. I should not be up late at night worrying over the state of the national health care system.. but I am and it feels kinda silly in the light of day. Im stressed over money (who isnt?) Im stressed over my job for a multitude of reasons that I am not going to go into here. Im stressed over my dog getting closer and closer to dying (i guess the same could be said for every living thing on the planet). Im stressed over not practicing my music enough (read ever), about if i should spend the money on violin lessons when i dont even practice the whistle very much, about jeff's family, about my family, about global warming, and the total lack of world peace. Tell me how to get all these worries to shut the hell up and let me sleep. I run thru imaginary conversations with my worries in my head night after night and i cant seem to get them to go away. I guess this is the definition of anxiety, but dammit i live a pretty charmed life... why the hell am i sitting up at 3am wondering if Obama is gonna get the health care system fixed or if a co-worker's family member will ever apologize to her for what she said last weekend... etc.. I would really really like an off button or at least a pause button for the 'voices/worries' in my head. And now im worried that too many people are gonna read this if i post it to facebook, which is kinda the point of blogging. sigh. im a goof. i get this. just not sure how to fix the situation so i can go back to appreciating all the great shit in my life.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

go go gadget garage sale... doing pretty darn well financially so far. Wish us luck tommorow. more stuff to sell

Saturday, August 22, 2009

busy day

Worked this morning. Then went with Jean over to a the house of a friend of hers. A group had gathered to scrapbook. These people were serious about their scrapbooking. Lots more loot and paper, and pens, and stuff with extra stuff and more stuff than I have in my scrapbooking collection. Made me feel like I could go out and buy more scrapbooking stuff of my very own without feeling the least bit guilty. Neato. I even finished a whole page. Go me.
Then i came home and jeff and I worked on the house. We are still trying to sort through all his things that he brought down from Gloucester. On the upside its forcing me to go through everything, on the downside my house is bursting at the seams with yet more stuff. But we are hoping to do a garage sale next weekend to try to unload some of this loot. Feel free to come on buy and take our stuff off of our hands. Or bring your own to sell.
In other news Jes got a tattoo. You should wander over to her blog to see pics. Its pretty cool. http://fulcrummonkey.blogspot.com/ My thoughts are with her, but it seems like shes doing pretty well all things considered. And she's headed down this way in a few weeks.. Im very excited.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

twitter

i did it.. i joined twitter. First a blackberry and now twitter... what is the world comming to. In other news we had a rockin session at the pub tonight. Not many patrons but the musicians had a great time.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

home again home again

Jeff is due back tonight around midnight. Its kinda sad/cute but the last 5 days is the longest we have been apart since we started dating. (A year on august 17th) I am very much looking forward to having him home again. Im sure the dogs are a bit confused as well. I will confess that I have been letting (read not kicking them off) ruger(german shepherd) and sometimes kate (poodle) sleep on the bed while jeff was gone. its too wierd having the whole bed to myself. I have to admit im feeling kinda guilty writing this post. We are fast approaching the one year anniversy of the death of one of my closest friends husband. He was 35 and he had a massive heart attack that killed him on the spot. Jeff will be home (knock on wood) in a few hours and her husband never got to come home again. Makes me appreciate what I have so very much more.

Monday, August 10, 2009

running

went running tonight for the first time in several weeks.. thats right... running, in florida, in august. yep im crazy. mental note: running on a full stomach is a totally dumb idea. (especially in florida...in august..)

if it helps it sounded like a good idea at the time...